Wednesday again... already?

This week has flown by! I had good intentions of blogging daily but you know what they say about the road to hell and good intentions...

New month, new season, same old struggle. I am discouraged today. It's not because I haven't followed the plan, I have. I even made it through a family picnic without going over points, (I am learning). What has me discouraged is my body's attempt at menopause.


I started experiencing symptoms several years ago- hot flashes, hormonal surges, periods from hell, and a sex drive that varied from GIVE IT TO ME NOW to GET THE HELL AWAY FROM ME! I started skipping periods and went 5 months without one. Then BOOM!...back with a vengeance. Then I changed to every other month hellacious periods. Suddenly, they are back every month. What the @#$%^&*?????

I was starting to really feel my weight loss. It's only 15 ish pounds but I was feeling GREAT! Today...I am bloated, cranky, and want to lick the salt off all of my Weight Watchers Honey Mustard snacks. Oh, and it's weigh in day. This ought to be interesting!

I know I have been on plan. I know it's all just water weight, I know I will feel better soon BUT if the scale goes up, I may just cry! (I know the scale goes up and down and we need to deal with it, but it's my blog and I will cry if I want to! LOL).

Rant over. It's time to read up on this crap so I know what I am dealing with. I have had this book by Dr Christiane Northrup for years and have never cracked it open. The time has come... I feel like my body is turning against me. She refers to menopause as, "A time of personal empowerment and positive energy". Sounds like my journey to wellness. Okay, Dr, I'm in.

I will share the wisdom over the next however-long as I delve into the book. Thanks for listening.

My Wednesday Weigh In...

I am down another 3.4 pounds! WOOHOO! I lost my 5% and am past 15 pounds! Fifteen point two to be exact...lol. Everyone keeps asking what I am doing to lose every week. I am just following the program, drinking water, and trying to move more. It's just coming off. I have been eating so much, for so long, I think my body is relieved!

The meeting today was a good one, although a bit tough to sit through."Give Yourself a Break: See how a little TLC can help you stay on plan". We spent some time discussing negative self talk and the things we say to ourselves. I can be pretty rough on myself and from the sounds of the anonymous comments the leader read off, I am not alone. I cannot remember a time when I didn't slam myself or talk down about myself. I guess I say things before someone else can say them... to beat them to it and soften the blow. Trouble is, I hear it from myself so often, I believe it! My challenge this week TO YOU and TO MYSELF is to lighten up! 

Every time the self sabotage begins, I am going to stop what I am doing and remind myself that I am a work in progress. I will remind myself of the good things I am doing. If I make a mistake, I will accept it and move on. No more letting it wreck my whole day.

My leader is so inspiring and funny. She mentioned a phrase that really rang true to me. When I make a mistake,and I will make mistakes, I need to remind myself "not to flatten the other three tires". What a visual. I would never think to flatten every tire on my car if one went flat... how silly that I throw away hours, days, or weeks compounding one screw up? 


Let's be nice to ourselves, shall we? We are trying to be healthy. We have all had enough pain in our lives... that's what brought us to weight loss in the first place. So let's walk along together and be kind to ourselves.

 To quote the beautiful Elizabeth Taylor, "Pour yourself a drink [of water...lol], put on some lipstick, and pull yourself together!"

Til next time, my lovelies!

Sunday, Sunday Sunday...

Sunday, August 24, 2014

Sunday is cleaning day for me, laundry, pick up the house, run a vacuum, cat box...etc etc. I usually do the shopping too. For my darling husband, it's sit-and-relax-before-Monday day. Doesn't bother me... except for having to vacuum around him...lol. He does just about anything I ask him to, I just try not to ask one day a week so he can relax. My relaxation time is Sunday night after an evening nap. I stay up all night to get my work sleep schedule on track and that's when I get to sew to my hearts content with zero interruptions! Tonight, I will try to finish 20 Santa Star quilt blocks for a swap. Then, I can get back to finishing up some projects for me.

I have been concentrating on my Spaces this week. The car and work are easy... a flat of water in the backseat and a bag full of food in the front with quick snacks I can eat on the go between calls all night.

Home has been a work in progress. Hubby is not on plan nor does he care to be. His health hurdle this year has been quitting smoking. He hasn't smoked in 5 months and I am so happy for him. He does need to lose weight but he will when he is ready. Sooo.... I buy his food and my food. We share meats and salads of course but if he gets chips, I buy WW chips. He has his popcorn, I have Skinnypop. He has ice cream, I have frozen yogurt. It works for us. As long as I have something similar to eat, I am not tempted in my home.

I have started to leave my scale on the counter ready to go. He bought me a gallon water filter container that sits on the counter so I can have water ready to drink. He bought a vacuum sealer so our veggies stay fresh. Today I will buy wide mouth mason jars to make pre-made salads in. He has even asked for one to take to work every day! I fished a pie basket out of the closet to fill with my snacks so they are within reach. It has helped me stay OP all week!

NSV (non-scale victory) decided to go to Disneyland instead of hanging around the house last night. Instead of eating there, we stopped at Subway. I stayed OP and got 6543 steps in. We usually stop fpr ice cream on the way home but instead, I came home and ate a yummy peach with some froyo! I am beginning to think I CAN really do this!

My first post....redo

Friday, August 22, 2014

Greeting fellow WW peeps!!! I am new to the program, again. It has been 10 years since I worked the program and things have changed a bit. I love it so far and seem to be getting my groove going.

My first meeting was August 6 and it took everything in me to walk inside that door... I am sure I am not alone in this! I weighed in at a whopping 277.4 lbs. An all time high for me (hold your applause). What an eye opening experience that was! I was in the right place for sure. The first meeting was informative and friendly. I thought to myself, "I can do this!"

Fast forward one week- through fumbling with my tracker, standing in the grocery store aisle trying to figure out points (my husband is so patient), and peeing like a cow on a flat rock from all the extra water in my system- weigh in day was here. I lost 8.4 lbs. Now before you tell me that it was mostly water... hear this...I don't care if it was lung tissue....I was EIGHT POINT FOUR pounds lighter!!! The girls all clapped for me and I was in a good place.

Week Two- (bear with me, I KNOW I am a rambler) second week, better at tracking, in a groove... and I lost another 3.4! Yay! More clapping... my leader makes me feel like a super hero (I should make a cape!).

I know these big numbers won't last but I am enjoying them while they do. My biggest realizations so far? First- I can be hungry for a little bit, if I get busy.... and I won't die! I had no idea!!! It had been so long! Second- There are reasons I do not take care of myself and I need to get to those issues in order to proceed through this journey. I am working through the book, "Find Your Fingerprint". I picked it up at my first meeting.

I want health, wellness, and wholeness for myself.

Until next time.... SoozG